Aisha+Wilcox

Aisha Wilcox

English 1005

Instructor Nancy Noonan

01 October 2010

"Why do I struggle with school" ?

School is a new and challenging experience for me. The main reason school has been such a challenge is, my own lack of discipline.

I've always been used to doin things when and how I want. I've always lived a care-free, undisciplined lifestyle. I like to go out and party

with friends and tend to frequently do things on impulse. I struggle with dealing with authority and having to answer to anyone other than

myself. I have trouble making and keeping plans, so therefore sometimes homework is pushed to the side.

The fact that I've been out of school for six years contributes to my struggles with this new experience. Soon after graduating from

school I recieved a good paying job with Bank of America. This allowed me to be comfortable and have financial stability. I was content

in my situation feeling I had everything I needed. I was content to the point that I felt like school was uneccessary. For many years after

I struggled with myself unsure of a degree I wanted to pursue.

Then my mom passed and now I had more responsibilities to deal with, I not only had to care for myself and son I had to take on

the responsibility of my younger brother and sister. Now came issues with financial constraints and limited space within my household.

At this time I was also dealing with severe depression, which was a deterrent from my normal responsibilites. This was a very difficult

time for me and I was overwhelmed to the point that I was always angry and thought things would never get better. Dealing with

the lost of a parent is one of the most difficult things to deal with.

Fortunetly, I've overcome these obstacles and have taken the initiative to get myself back into school, I'm here but still continue to

struggle. My tight schedule does not help the situation. While attending school full-time I'am still working part-time which can be very

time consuming. I have a nine year old son who also goes to school and has football practice everyday, also having classes spread

among the many campuses doesn't help my situation. The combination of school, work and being a mother, leaves me drained and

restless because there's hardly ever any time left to sleep.I hope these stuggles will be a short lived experience so I can more easily

transition into this new lifestyle.Discipline is my key to success and these struggles are just minor obstacles.