Vichet+Yan

Shame Vichet Yan Nancy Noonan ENGL 1005-321 22 July 2013

Guilt, embarrassment, and humiliation describe what I have felt. The word ashamed sums it all up. I been embarrassed so many times and one lie lead to it all. I felt guilty doing something I shouldn’t have. People have humiliated me so many times. Being embarrassed is not a feeling you like at all. Your face turns red. Your body heats up because your heart rate is below zero. Everything just comes crashing down all at once. One day I lied about not having my friend’s laptop. After that the lies kept building up and it got to a point where our parents had to get in the situation. I was young I didn’t know any better. My dad raised his voice so loud I jumped and I felt so embarrassed because it was in front of everyone and he didn’t care. I felt so horrible because I didn’t mean for that little lie to end up like this. But it did and I learned my lesson from that point on. One day when I was shopping my little cousin had come and she’s about five at the time. Little kids like to pick up things and put things into your bag without you knowing. I don’t blame her, but I blamed myself. So she dropped a toy in my bag and we walked out but nothing rang. I didn’t notice until I got home that it was in there. So I kept it debating on whether or not to give it back and so I didn’t because it was something small for her. Couple hours passed and I’m thinking about it and that feeling that I had was guilt. Guilt is an intense feeling. You think so much about it but if feels like you’re stuck and you can’t do anything about it. Then I returned it and that feeling went away which was great. I had to do it. Even though that situation was little I still felt guilty. I have been humiliated so many times because of my actions. It caused someone to call me different type of horrible names did I didn’t like. So me being stupid I was waiting in line and I felt like I can get away with me cutting people but I didn’t so a whole commotion went on because I got caught. So he kept saying foul language towards me calling me a bad name and I didn’t know what to say I just felt humiliated. I wanted to hit the guy but that wouldn’t solve anything. So I mind my business and left, which was a good thing. In conclusion I felt ashamed basically for doing something wrong. It was for little situations that turned out even bigger. Guilt, embarrassment, and humiliation come with more mixed up emotions it brings you down. You feel ashamed because of your doing.

Well said Vichet~ Zahava!