My+shame+esssay

Josefa Nix Professor Nancy College Reading for College Success 20 July 2013 I was ashamed She simply asked “are you embarrassed of us your parents?” I did not know how to reply to my mother, I was embarrassed but not because of my parents I was embarrassed because we did not own anything so expensive and “cool” as the other kids in school like air Jordan shoes that always came out every month and cost about a hundred dollars, and then the clothes that the girls wore which was from American eagle. I had so much envy towards them all because they’re parents did not have to struggle like mines and their parents could buy them whatever they like and did not have any worry about spending money on. I did not want my parents to go to my school for that parent teacher meeting, I was afraid of how the other kids school would react towards my parents outfit and overall personality, because when I was in middle school being able to own expensive clothes and if your parents are able to wear those brand name clothes it was “cool” of them. My mom asked me again” are you embarrassed of me and your father.” I said “yes I am.” They was shocked they could not believe it they did not understand why and it broke they’re heart knowing I was embarrassed of them. They still proceed to go to the parent teacher conference, they gave me that I am disappointed look. I was not thinking at that moment and because all I cared was about me, it was selfish of me to think about my feelings that day. As I think about it now my parents had to struggle for a living when I was younger because having four children was really hard for them to maintain but they still provided a home and food on the table and it was more important than anything else. I will always remember that I saw the pain in their eyes when I said "Yes I am" and it was because of my selfish ways I did not realize how much more important of having a home then clothes was. Just because one does not own any expensive clothes, shoes and have a big house that does not mean they should be judged because everyone has to struggle for a living and what is most important is being able to have the ones around you who love you in your life, because they are the ones who stick around. Well said chica! zahava!